Sometimes

...i feel so anxious, my skin crawls
...i feel like my head is going to explode
...i wish that a car would run me over when i'm coming back from getting my coffee in the morning
...i feel like i have no choices
...i feel so out of control that it makes me dizzy
...i feel like i can't breathe
then i go shopping.
then i feel better.
for about ten minutes.